It's interesting the impact that people have on your heart. I know for me, the ache of people come and gone can get overwhelming. I wish I could write letters to them, that they'd receive them with joy, that they weren't too far away to answer.
Abandonment issues? or holes in the heart?
For those who are missing, you are missed. You are wanted. You are loved. You left a hole in our hearts, or maybe it was just mine. Just know I'm still hanging on for you. Maybe it's unhealthy...but I don't want to give up.
Jesus,
You are stronger than this. Lord, you see the holes left by people that I've loved dearly. I know that the feelings of losing them is only a fraction of how you feel as you look down on us when we don't seek you. Lord, would you forgive me for the times I've left holes in your heart?
Let your name be lifted higher, Lord. I could list the people that I long to have in my life, I could count them on my fingers. My heartbreak is so small, but Lord, despite how small it is, would you take it?
Teach me to love with your strength. Teach me to cherish memories, and to not let them turn me bitter. Lord, you are my fortress. Only you can fill the void left by people who have left me and the people I've left.
One day, we will all be together again. There will be no more pain or sorrow. No confusion. We will be together. Days past and the agony with it will be a mere memory. How long, Lord? How long till you take us home? I long for that day.
Lord, all I can do is look to you. I know you hear me. I know you listen. You hear me. Please take this as a meek offering, I know that you already have all of me. But I surrender it to you.
